How it is

I think I'm Running Out of Gas!

2010-04-16T00:28:00.000-07:00

So many memories.... so long ago! Summer 03?... summer 04?... Or could it be even longer? Maybe it was summer 02?.... Don't even remember!

SHHMACK #5

2010-04-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

Never Knew! .... Or Maybe I Did!

2010-04-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

Or did I? ... Ya I think I always knew I was picky, but maybe I just wasn't willing to admit it! Or maybe I just didn't know I was THIS picky!

So I'm on a quest, quest to find a new apartment! I need to move and it needs to happen NOW... or at least soon!

So this is what happened! I love the apartment I live in now but It's time to move, fresh start, new beginnings.... plus It's to expensive! So me and Thomas decided to stay in the same building but just downsize to a 1 bedroom! They had one available about two weeks ago and we started packing our stuff! Half way through the move I have to get ready fr work so we decide to finish everything the next day! ....While at work I decide that I don't want to live in the new unit! I felt like I was settling and that I didn't want it! So I went home after work and moved everything back in the middle of the night! So I basically lived in the new apartment for 12h! After that I returned the key, said sorry to the landlord and went back to my old and messy apartment!

So now I'm hunting for a new apartment again, and I really want to live in queen anne! Me and Josh spend all Tuesday looking at 7 units, I WAS EXHAUSTED! It's Friday night now and out of the 7 units there is only one I'm still thinking about..... meaning only one I'm actually considering! I really liked the apartment but is that the apartment I want? Can I make that my home? ..... Do I want to make that my new home? It's really nice but I'm just not getting that feeling! I need to walk in and get that feeling..... you know what I'm talking about! The This is it" feeling where everything feels just right! Am I being to picky? Am I spoiled?..... At the end of the day I need to be happy with the space I choose to live in so It's okay! Yes maybe I'm picky but I have to feel at home in my own home!

Time to go on a hunt again!

GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH! Soooooooooooooo Haaaaaaaaaard!

A Vice....

2010-04-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

Find a place that's not dark.... Find some calm, some warmth, some good music and memories.... Find a purpose, your loosing yourself!

Your consuming yourself with heavy thought, burdens and darkness! Your path is so crooked you can't see your open doors... instead your consumed by the ones that shut behind you... let go!

I would catch myself feeling sorry for you, thinking you needed guidance! But I was wrong! You got all the guidance, hands and help you needed, you just refused to see it for what it was!

GET OVER IT! Live your life! Your so busy thinking about what you don't have, what you should have and what you think you deserve that you can't see what you already got! Shit happens.... Life happens.... Your letting "life" get the best of you when you should really be focusing on getting the best out of life!

Your lost!

Cyanide and Happiness! #5

2010-04-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

One Day All Them Bags Gone Get In Your Way!

2010-04-01T13:02:00.000-07:00

Bag Lady, nobody ever told you all you must hold on to IS YOU! One day all them bags gone get in your way! ...... So pack light!

Bag Lady, you gone miss your buss, you can't hurry up cuz you go to much stuff! When they see u comin' they just take off running........

One day he gone say you crowdin' my space..... so pack light!

Let it go, let it go, let it go....

SHHMACK! #4

2010-03-31T10:10:00.000-07:00

Ohh I'm Sorry Mama did I Step on your Toes?

2010-03-31T09:55:00.000-07:00

Yes YEEEEES I speak my mind, and no I don't always apologize for it! Actually chances are slim to none that I ever will! There's been lots of moments when I over step my boundaries and I open my mouth just a little to fast.... those are the times when I'm more then willing to apologize! Me priding myself on being open and honest doesn't mean I don't know my place or when I should just keep my mouth SHUT! I just have occasional slips :p

Now to the once that feel offended when I speak my mind... GO HOME! Cause I sure as hell know I'm not leaving, and if my presence causes such great discomfort I suggest you leave.... cause once again... I'M NOT!

Love Rain.. Jill Scott & Mos Def

2010-03-08T22:19:00.000-08:00

You are the beautiful distress of mathematics, for you I would peel open the clouds like new fruit and give you lightning and thunder as a dowry... I would make the sky shed all of It's stars like rain, and I will make the heavens your King.....

Your Own Worst Enemy!

2010-02-20T07:51:00.000-08:00

I always pride myself on being honest, sometimes to honest! I always pride myself on speaking my mind although I sometimes do it to loud! I always push myself to be the BEST at something I'm already somewhat good at, I always force myself to learn what I don't yet know! I can do whatever I tell myself I can do, I can take on any task I choose to take on and I can look at myself in the mirror and say "You can do this" and actually believe it!

Now to my next task..... How do I make you understand that you can do the same?

How do u Manage?

2010-02-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

I've had a REALLY REALLY interesting day...... REALLY interesting! Can't believe I even made it through, but don't say "yaaaaaaay" yet I still have about 2 hours to go before the day is over! So let's just say I made it through so far!

So I started my day at 7 a.m! Time to pick up my cousins and take them to school! Then after that I took aunt #1 to the ER cause she was sick! While were sitting there at the ER I get a call from aunt #2's doctor..... She's having a baby!!!... She's not really supposed to until another 3 weeks so it was kinda unexpected but what the hell, if it's time it's time! So in the middle of me and aunt #1's ER session we had to bounce! While on our way to the car to rush to the pregnant aunt I get a phone call.... It's my boyfriend Thomas, he has food poisoning! GREEEEEEAAAAAT! Thats juuust what I need right now! One Aunt in the ER, one in labor and a boyfriend that's throwing up and needs care! Thank you Jesus for blessing me on this wonderful February day!.... THANK YOU!

Were Just Gonna Give U a new Laptop! ... Really?! ... Ya! Really!!

2010-01-24T01:18:00.000-08:00

So I've had my MacBook for almost 3 years, and when I say almost it's because it had exactly 2 weeks left for it's 3rd birthday! So she was getting a little old but she was still in good shape! She was a little bit slower than she had been in the beginning but no major problems, just minor issues! When I bought my laptop I also purchased a 3 year insurance for $180... good deal if you ask me!

So about 2 months ago my computer started restarting itself! I've been to lazy to fix it, but with only 2 weeks left on my insurance I realized I had to do it now or never! So I took it to the apple store and showed them the problem! The computer tech guy looked at my laptop, went and consulted a co-worker and then came back!!!

- So how would you feel if we just gave you a new laptop?
- EXCUSE ME... WHAT!
- You've had enough trouble with this laptop, you need a new one!
- Am I getting a used one or a new one?
- A new one, a better one then the one you had!
- WOHOOOOOOO! GIVE IT TO ME!

And so I left the apple store with a brand new computer, a new 3 year insurance and a upgrade from a regular MacBook to a MacBook Pro without paying a dime!

Wooot Woot Hurra!!

My Moma Told me Don't Loose You cuz the Best Luck I had was You!

2010-01-20T14:32:00.000-08:00

I love music in all it's forms..... but this cut right here makes me jump of joy right now!!!!

I love you I love you I love you!

Ice Cream Sun-DAY

2009-12-20T12:25:00.001-08:00

I'm eating ice cream for breakfast..... some would say WTF??!! But I say MMMmmmmmm! What a great way to start a day!

Mornings are great! Even if I'm tired I try to make the best out of it! If you start your morning in a bad way there is a big chance the rest of your day won't be that fab either! I have my bad mornings to, like when you wake up and It's gray and raining outside! Days like that I just want to hide under the cover and pretend like I never woke up to begin with! But after I finally get my ass up and take a shower it's a whole other story!!!

MORNING GLORY

Sometimes

2009-12-18T13:24:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you just want to go home!

Insecurities

2009-12-17T13:06:00.000-08:00

Okay I get it we all have them and I would never deny that! But then we have the once that let it take over and ruin everything for them!

I LOVE beautiful people and to be honest most people are. People tell me I'm crazy when I say that but I mean it! Everybody's beautiful, the difference is in how we take care of ourselves and how we carry ourselves! I've met so many pretty people that just wittered and faded away as soon as I carried a conversation with them..... as much as I love beautiful people I can't stand stupid people!

Back to insecurities! I believe I've always been somewhat confident! Reason I say "somewhat" is because I had to grow, learn, and accept things the way they are to get to where I am today.... today I'm a grown woman who love myself! I have lots of friends and family and we all enjoy each others company, socializing is just the most fun activity! When we get ready to go out we all try to look our best! Not necessarily for others but because anybody likes the feeling of looking good! After that we all go out together, socialize with other people and have fun! .... Now to my point! When you walk in to a bar, club or even just a store you see lots of people! A few years ago I would leave the house to go somewhere feeling good about myself, after I arrived and would see all beautiful people I would feel intimidated! .... THAT'S JUST SO WRONG ON SO MANY LEVELS...... You can't let other people compromise how you feel about yourself! Your only hurting yourself, ruining your night and missing out! This is something I know today but didn't know then! Today I walk in to a room and enjoy seeing all the people, there can be 100 beautiful women there and it won't really change anything about me, I'm still going to look just the way I did when I left the house and felt good! So I'm going to keep that feeling, socialize with all the beautiful people, admire and enjoy myself!

Girls, Women, Ladies and Sisters.... I advise you to do the same!

New York

2009-12-17T12:47:00.001-08:00

It Gives you Topics Like no Other!

2009-12-16T13:23:00.000-08:00

My uncle watches CNN 24/7... If he's home CNN is on and there is no way around it! I don't mind at all but sometimes you want to watch something else!

When I was 9 I was in Dallas the whole summer, it also happened to be the year that O.J Simpson was on trial for the murder of his wife! I'm 24 now so I can appreciate CNN, but at that time I was forced to always stare at the same black man around the clock! Everything was about this man O.J and I just couldn't understand why he was more interesting than Cartoon Network! I had no way of winning, there was no way anybody was going to allow me to change the channel while his trial was airing, and of course it was airing ALL THE TIME! So CNN became the network that I related to something bad... kind of like when you eat something you really like but it happened to make you sick just once, after that it's ruined and you don't even want to smell that food EVER again!

Now, about 15 years later I can appreciate the channel for what it is. A news Channel that brings the latest to the table, discusses everything that's relevant, still offers entertainment and ignites conversation! Now and for about 2 years I've actually enjoyed watching it with my uncle. After just watching for 2 minutes were already in heated discussions and it's mixed with dead seriousness and laughter! I love my uncle for many reasons, and sometimes I do want to change the channel just for a change! But that doesn't change the fact that when it comes to CNN we connect!

Coffe Break!

2009-12-16T01:59:00.000-08:00

And so It goes on!

2009-12-16T01:35:00.000-08:00

Yes.. life does go on!

You know when you have a rude awakening of some sort... Like maybe a back stab from someone you trusted that makes you question things!? Sure it makes you question but it also gives you a realization of some sort! ... Whatever it is my question is "What happens after that?"

When something happens to you or you go through a hard time you learn! Sometimes It's hard to see the good part, meaning the learning experience itself! Sometimes it's so hard to see beyond the door that shut behind you that you can't see the wide open door that just appeared right in front of you! Most of the time we blame other people... how could he/she do this to me, or worse... how could I do this to myself? The longer you dwell over it the longer it will take to reach that new open door! The longer you ask yourself why the more your inhibiting yourself from reaching that source of positive energy you need, that sense of feeling well rested and at peace when you wake up in the morning will witter and you'll even forget what it feels like to feel good! You'll be digging a deep hole of self pity and lack of self worth... You'll be loosing time, time you can spend on smiling and letting bye gones be bye gones'!

I'm not saying it's easy... I'm saying it's necessary to take that step toward your new beginning no matter how hard it is! Nothing comes easy... if you ever thought it would be then "the rude awakening" itself will be your new open door!

What the HELL is Wrong with you??!!

2009-11-23T12:40:00.001-08:00

So I had to work this Sunday, I don't mind at all but it didn't help that I was out all night! Anyways it went fine and I wasn't to tired!

So while at work I was taking care of some paperwork and inventory! I'm walking back and forth counting some of the stock in the front of the store! I notice the same man standing outside the store for almost 15-20min!! Thought about it for a few seconds but then I just went back to work! After a while he comes in and says that I look like one of "his people" but now he's been staring at me long enough to come to the conclusion that I'm not. But before he walks away he just wants to make sure that he's right..... WHAT??!!

Okay I know I'm light skinned but come on..... I could see from miles away that he's Ethiopian, it's really not that hard to spot an African!! It's not the first time it's happened but I've never been analyzed this thoroughly before! The man was just glaring at me and it was so uncomfortable!

The icing on the cake was that he had 3 kids with him, stayed and talked and talked and talked, then asked me what I'm doing later tonight while all the kids are yelling papa I want this, papa I want that!!!! I wanted to laugh at the whole situation but how do you laugh at someone that just asked you out... that's just evil!!! Obviously the poor man lacks perspective!!! I turned him down and he walked out with his head down and the 3 kids following he's steps!

Sayonara wacko!!!

Sunday Activity!

2009-11-15T17:39:00.000-08:00

I had a three day weekend... WOHOOOO! Loved it! Was off Friday, Saturday AND SUNDAY!! How can you not love that?! Been staying home lately but this weekend I was so ready to go out! Friday night I met up with my friend Kalid at Red Fin and we had a loooong chitchat! We had a lot of catching up to do and after a lot of good conversation, laughs, food and drinks we noticed the place was empty! Closing time and we hadn't even noticed it!! We went to Suite 410 for a last drink and called it a night!

Saturday was IKEA day and after that I was ready to go again! On with the party shoes and out and about again! As much as I love just staying home sometimes, I also love going out with good company; have some good laughs and shake some pounds off!!!!

Sunday is "leave-me-alone-day"... I'm feelin' good, but I just want to be lazy and left alone! Let me couch slouch, eat ice cream, hack away on my computer and just be me! You can try to convince me to do something but I don't see it happening!

Peace Out....... I have to go back to my Sunday activities! :P

Pleasant Walk from Queen Anne

2009-11-06T12:18:00.000-08:00

See..... A nice way of turning something otherwise really dull into something really pretty!

Endorphins=Happy=Healthy=Longevity!

2009-11-06T11:52:00.000-08:00

So ya I took a break.... whatever.... hunt me down and confront me about it and see what happens! First I'll be startled, you know that little chock sensation when something unexpected happens.. then I'll listen to what you have to say, and after that I'll probably laugh!

I'm not trying to be rude, I love to write but I just haven't felt very inspired lately! It's my blog so I write when I feel like it. If your my friend or a fan then feel free to complain and I might be able to pull some inspiration out of my ass for you! Anything for you my darling!!!!

So Seattle is still standing! Summer is over, fall is half way through and winter is closer then I would like it to be! I don't mind winter, it's not the actual weather that bothers me! I mean I would choose a dress and sandals any day over winter, but winter has it's charm to! The big scarfs, the lovely but ohhh so expensive boots, leather gloves and black on black! I LOVE COLOR, but black on black always looks chic! The actual problem is the mood, people just go down down down during winter. Depression strikes, the sence of melancholy paralyzes the city and people drown in their self pity and distress! We all live in winter, but yet people still act as if their alone! I just don't get it!

I was born in February 24 years ago.... that means that so far I've been through 25 winters and 24 summers! Yes I get frustrated when Summer is over, and yes I wish summer was longer, but I'm not gonna get depressed over it! If I'm gonna get depressed every winter it means I'm gonna be depressed about half my life.... SOO NOT WORTH IT!

Take my advice.... being happy and appreciating is easier than being down, and did I forget to mention how much healthier it is to!? Smile and your endorphin levels will go up.... Endorphins=Happy=Healthy=Longevity!

I'm Spoiled!

2009-09-18T10:46:00.000-07:00

Ya I know.... I vanished! I don't know what's up and I don't know why, just don't feel very inspired right now. Things are good, nothing bad... minor things of course but no disaster!

So much I want to do but it's just not happening right now. I want to go to L.A with Josh and Libby and meet his family and relax a little bit, have some fun to of course.... BUT I'M BROKE! I want to go to N. Y with with Beshir and Genghis but I don't see that happening either!

I failed my friend by not being able to attend her wedding OR call her on her big day! I wanted to but brides are usually stressed so I just decided not to. Then I thought I should send a text but didn't know what to say so I told myself I'm gonna do it later... did I do it... NO! Of course I forgot! And now it's all over and I still haven't called her... SO STUPID!

I want to start school again so bad, but I don't see that happening either!

I've needed a haircut for about a year now and still haven't cut my hair... why? Because my hair needs to be cut dry and every salon so far has told me that they need to cut it wet or dry it and straighten it before they can cut it... STUPID! It defeats the purpose... I wear my hair curly and DRY.... if they cut it wet it's not gonna look good dry, and if they cut it when it's straight I'll look stupid with my hair curly! I don't do straight hair, straight hair is flat=boring!

So there you have it... no disasters, I'm just irritated!

WEDDING!!

2009-09-14T01:10:00.000-07:00

I don't have all the pictures yet, this is it for now!

Bridezilla Mode and 2 1/2 Day Wedding Over!

2009-09-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

I went totally M.I.A I know.... My friend Mimi finally got married, it's over now! It was great but I think it took me like a week to recover, EXHAUSTING!

Wedding was Saturday August 29th but the preparations started wayyyy before that! We all had to be at the Sheraton at 3 p.m Friday, then we all went to the church and started decorating..... ORANGE ORANGE ORANGE! Took a little time but it looked nice! After that we all went back to the hotel and it was hair time, we were up all night doing hair and poor Mimi didn't even lay her head on the pillow before it was time to do make-up and put the wedding dress on, I got to rest for a little more than an hour but no deep sleep.... just rest! We all had to be ready by 6.30 a.m so that the photographer could take pictures and after that we had to leave for the church at 8 a.m!

After the church we were off to the park to take pictures for like 3 hours. After that back to the Hotel to take a shower and get ready all over again for the reception. We were running EXTREMELY late and made it to the reception around 8 p.m! After that you dance and party until about 1 a.m and then back to the hotel.

7 a.m it was time to get up again..... time to do our hair... AGAIN! This time traditional braids... pretty but painful! Hair done around 3 p.m, got back to the hotel, took a shower and time o get ready again. Traditional dress on, traditional jewelry on and traditional mode ready! It's time to go and dance again! So were back again at the second reception around 8 p.m and we party til 1 a.m again! After that back to the hotel and time for pictures again for about another hour.... KILLER! After that I was knocked out and slept for like 24 hours! Woke up with a busted knee but felt great... we did really good!

Pictures are coming don't worry!

GREAT Dinner!

2009-08-25T09:18:00.000-07:00

Thank you Libby and Nick for a great dinner, and thank you Josh for always being great company! Well.. Libby is a character so she's always a highlight when we hang out! Nick was a great Chef and I enjoyed getting to know him better!

Okay.... I know it's been a week but better late then never! :D

I See Nothing but Red!

2009-08-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

Right now there is no stopping me... I feel pure rage, hatred and pity! Rage from the deception, hate for the selfishness and pity for the ignorance!

How can you be so foolish that you bite the hand that feeds you? How can you be so selfish that you show no gratitude to the people that keep you warm and breathing?.... And how dare you have the audacity to sit in my home and lie to me while your actually looking me straight in the eye demanding respect? How dare you anything right now?

You have disrespected me, you have stabbed me in the back, you have lied to me and you have USED me!!! Don't think I'm saying all of this because of one single incident, this just happens to be the finale straw in a string of events and happenings that have drawn us further apart! I AM TIRED!

To think I actually used to consider you a friend, to think that I actually felt compassion for your situation, to think that I actually wanted to do everything I possible could to help you and still got NOTHING back! YOU HAVE GIVEN ME NOTHING BUT BAD ATTITUDE!

If this is what you call friendship, then your no friend of mine! Believe me... I will not be played for a fool!

Fall 2009 Here I Come!

2009-08-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hmm..... I could add a leather jacket!! Next Time! :D

Bra Hunt!

2009-08-23T21:21:00.000-07:00

Long day with no results! Nothing Nothing Nothing! I had an average of one option in every store and of course none of them worked! NOTHING! Apparently my size is very difficult.... so I guess now your thinking why? Well .... this is how it is, My boobies are HUGE, but I'm not! So if it fits around then the cup is to small, and if the cup is right then I can twirl the bra around my back about three times... so ya, thats my situation!

SHHMACK #3

2009-08-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

Orange Cup Cake!

2009-08-22T06:30:00.001-07:00

The clock is ticking, one more week to go and then BAAAAM... Mimis Wedding! We had our final fitting for the brides made dresses yesterday, all the alterations will be ready in a few days and after that were good to go! Of course we all have strict rules we have to follow about how much information we can disclose about the dresses. But I can tell you this.... I'M SO HAPPY ALTERATIONS EXIST! Now it's close to perfect! It's not my wedding, it's mimi's wedding, if she's happy were all happy! At the day of the wedding me and her 3 other brides maids are gonna walk around looking like orange cup cakes....

Thats it, thats all the information I can give you! Were all sworn to secrecy!

Early Morning!

2009-08-20T09:33:00.000-07:00

Well not that early, but I've had better mornings.. or maybe i should say better nights/sleep!

Now to something more fun. Libby and Nicks dinner party was AWSOME! I was still full when i woke up the next morning.... Papa knows how to cook! We all had a great time, we ate, drank, hung out and talked ad talked! FUN! Me and Beshir were so full it took us 50min to walk back home, it usually takes about 20 min but the food was slowing us down! Well it was a fun night and I'll post some pictures later!

Mmmmmm FOOOOOD!

Pure Crap!

2009-08-18T17:39:00.001-07:00

So far I've had a pretty random day. I woke up at 5.30 AM, couldn't go back to sleep. Got up and got ready, called my friend Marcel and talked about random stuff and after that I just sat there and waited for Beshir to wake up. He finally got up around noon and we went to Top Pot to sit in the sun and just talk! After that I met up with Thomas and his friend around 3 PM and we decided to go to the movies. Odd time to see a movie but we didn't have much else going on. I wanted to see District 9 but they wanted something more fun. I knew "The Goods" Was gonna suck but I was out ruled by Thomas and his friend. So the movie was entertaining the first 20 min but after that it was PURE CACA (Thank you Josh for actually teaching me how to use caca in a sentence) and I slept for the rest of the movie! Well it's not all lost, at least I got to catch up on the sleep I lost this morning!

NOW!

Time to get ready, me and Beshir have a dinner date at Libby's house. I heard her Papa Nick is a pretty damn good chef and Josh is joining us to so I think I'm up for a treat!

Peace!

SHHMACK! #2

2009-08-17T16:46:00.000-07:00

It's Like a Small Explosion!

Weave-o-tastrophy

2009-08-14T23:58:00.000-07:00

Sweetie it's weave, it might look real but you can't wear it like real hair. Meaning, if it's your real hair and your having a bad hair day you can rock a swirly ponytail. But if it's weave and your having a bad weave day you have to put a scarf over your head or wear a hat. Black people have already mastered this technique, let's just hope white girls feel inspired cause right now they are ALL lost, no discrimination.

Joshua Cano :D

2009-08-13T14:08:00.000-07:00

Neighborly Conversation

2009-08-13T13:46:00.000-07:00

Our building is pretty big, it's 25 levels and 10 or so units on every floor. We had this really really quiet couple living right across us but they moved out and I didn't think much of it. So a few days ago I met my new neighbor in the hallway and she was really nice. She apologized and explained that her dogs are not used to apartment living and that she knows they bark a lot. I told her it's okay and that you can't hear them in my apartment.

Me: Ohh so your dogs bark a lot? Funny I never even noticed.

New Neighbor: We used to live in a house so it's just a big change for them.

Me: I'm happy you told me, if you ever feel that we play our music to loud then feel free to knock on our door and I'll turn it down right away.

New Neighbor: Well thats not gonna be a problem, I'm actually deaf and I can't hear a word your saying..... I'm just reading your lips right now!!

AND SILENCE...

So weird, If she hadn't told me I wouldn't have noticed! So I shock her hand, told her it was a pleasure meeting her and walked away....

Hmm!

2009-08-11T22:56:00.000-07:00

So about this jumpsuit thing... I have a black one that I love, I wear it around the house and out for sunny days, it's the perfect garment. So easy, you just put it on and your comfortable, fashionable and ready to go.... but now to the big problem..... How the hell do you go to the bathroom?

Jumpsuit Galore

2009-08-11T22:50:00.001-07:00

My Corner!

2009-08-11T04:02:00.000-07:00

Leave Room for Privacy!

2009-08-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

I consider myself pretty good with secrets and confidential stuff. I don't really see the need for information to leave a room, it's just not my thing. When somebody else has a secret then I don't really feel the need to dig either, I can ask a question and if I'm shut of then I don't try again. Obviously it wasn't any information that was meant for my ears and so I leave it at what it is.... a secret not meant for me.

But then we have the other kind. The people that know something or need to know something and therefore have to ask ask ask ask and pressure pressure pressure in hopes that you will POP and tell them that information that they don't even need unless it's for their own satisfaction. WHY? I just don't get it! You don't see me prying in your personal affairs... Why? Because their YOUR PERSONAL AFFAIRS, what makes you feel that you have to know something that doesn't concern you? You must be so bored it's actually sad. Digging is just time consuming, inconsiderate, selfish and obnoctious! Sort out your own shit and leave mine alone!

500 Days of Summer

2009-08-09T16:29:00.000-07:00

So me and Beshir were in our pj's watching Tv yesterday after the night out with Libby and Josh. The night ended early but we had a great time. Two TRUE characters and then me and Beshir, how can you go wrong?! LOVE LOVE LOVE! So in the middle of our lazyness Emelie called all of a sudden we were up and ready to go. We went to Northgate and looked around, found this great Spiderman T-shirt and when I looked at the price tag it was just 70 cents...... HOW CAN YOU SAY NO TO THAT! I loved it! After that it was back to downtown, we met up with Lorraina, Courtney and another girl that came up from Fresno and we all had a really good time. After that they all went on and me and Emelie went to the movies..... 500 days of summer.... GREAT MOVIE!

Not the traditional love story.... a real movie about love, heartbreak and moving on to the next chapter with all the hard but real moments in between.... didn't hurt that it had a funny twist and was beautifully made either! It's one of those movies I wouldn't mind buying and just watch every now and then.... I like "real" stuff!

SHHMACK #1

2009-08-07T11:54:00.000-07:00

Movie preview!

2009-08-06T17:04:00.000-07:00

So me and Beshir are getting ready to see my friend Josh and then meet up with Libby later. Josh got 4 tickets to the sneak preview of the movie paper hearts so were all going and then who knows what's up for later. You never know with Beshir, come to think of it you never know with Josh either... Ohh and guess what you surely never know with Libby either so let's just see how this all ends. If were all tired there could be a chance I get home with my memory fully intact... maybe!

Huhh?

2009-07-31T01:42:00.000-07:00

What's up with my soap, look at it!

So weird!

Crab Pot!

2009-07-28T11:45:00.000-07:00

When you work at a Hotel you get the same questions over and over again. Where is the restroom... down the stairs to your right! Is breakfast includes.... Yes, during weekdays it's served between 6.30-9.30 am and during weekends it's served between 7-10 am. Is Seattle a safe city, can you walk around..... Yes, Seattle is very safe and everybody walks, it's a great city. And then comes the more complicated question but we still answer it the same way..... where should we eat?.... WELL, Seattle is a dining city, there are restaurants in every corner but we are mostly known for good seafood. And then I give them the looooong list of recommendations! Crab Pot, Ivars, Elliots, Salty's, The Waterfront Grill and Anthony's. And thats just the restaurants by the water tat serve sea food. I always recommend the Crap Pot first because it's a family oriented restaurant with a great menu at a great price. So after recommending it 22 times a day EVERYDAY I thought it was time to go!

IT WAS A HIT! And a fun dining experience. Thomas looked like a kid in a candy store when he saw all the food. They throw crab, shrimp, corn, clams, oysters and all kinds of juicy stuff on the table and then you just grab and eat. Plates are for suckers!

Computer Back!

2009-07-28T11:42:00.000-07:00

So one week without a computer and now i finally got it back! And while my computer was gone Thomas computer crashed so we had no computer. Well Beshir has a computer but it only works when it feels like it so It doesn't count.

Beshir... :D

2009-07-14T12:09:00.000-07:00

Tuesday...

2009-07-14T12:06:00.000-07:00

And so the day has come...

don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to don't want to !!!!!

Flowers

2009-07-10T14:21:00.000-07:00

It made my day!

Today is Tomorrow

2009-07-10T13:25:00.000-07:00

Today we think about what we should have done yesterday, and what we want to do tomorrow, and tomorrow we think about what we should have been doing today and what the next day will hopefully look like.... And so it goes on and on.

WE HAD A BLAST!

2009-07-07T11:07:00.000-07:00

Joshua's Birthday

Me, Beshir, Libby and Josh!

My partner in crime and my beloved Nine West team!

We were supposed to be posing but this looks totally different to me! Who cares, bottom line is we had a GREAT night with lots of laughs and dancing.

I Remember

2009-07-07T10:40:00.000-07:00

I remember that day at Marcels house, we were sitting in front of his computer just as usual and he said he had this funny thing he wanted to show me....

- Okay show me.

- You gonna laugh first because he's a jewish reggae artist, but just give it a chance.

- JEWISH REGGAE ARTIST..... okay I gotta see this!

And then I was hooked, for the rest of that spring and summer to come I listened to his music religiously... I was a dedicated Matisyahu fan, I knew all his songs by heart! I listen to it early in the morning when it was time to get ready, before I left the house I already had my headphones on with his music, I listened to it on the subway and then turned it off right before I started work. After work the headphones were on again, all the way home, and then I turned my computer on and listened to the same music for the rest of the evening until someone turned it off because I had fallen a sleep... the day was over!

I saw him live in Denmark the summer of 2006, it was a great concert, it was a great summer, it was a great year. A few months after that I packed my bags and moved to Seattle, on the plane I still had Matisyahu singing in my ear.... ALL THE WAY TO SEATTLE!

Tomorrow Incoming

2009-07-05T22:19:00.000-07:00

So Sunday is coming to an end and Monday morning is right around the corner. It might be a regular Monday for you, but it's a really important Monday for me. Tomorrow is the day people... tomorrow! It can only go two ways tomorrow, god or bad... there is no in between, there is no gray zone, it's just black or white... it's do or don't!

7.30 a.m .... wish me luck!

Gotta Love It!

2009-06-29T01:23:00.000-07:00

It's Genius!

2009-06-29T00:47:00.000-07:00

We all know I love to shop... I love shoes, clothes and shiny things! I take care of my stuff, always wash in cold water, hand dry, fold neatly or hang in the closet. But loving fashion is expensive!

Now to the next thing, I love gay people. They are the most fun and open minded people. They make excellent friends, they are always by your side and they let you know when you look like crap and need to change, do your hair, or whatever... thank you!

When I met Thomas I threw out his entire closet and made him by new clothes. If you want to walk next to me you better keep your head up high and be put together. I don't care if you don't look your best or if your wearing sweats... just look clean and put together and were good to go. Thomas always looks nice, if I was a guy I would love to wear his clothes. Just a few minutes ago it dawned on me how fashionably practical it is to be gay..... If your gay and you live with your partner you'll have the biggest closet ever. You can cut down the shopping in half and still be doing as much shopping as you used to before you were two. Or you can just continue to shop as usual but end up with twice as mush clothes..... JOY OH JOY!

This is so perfect I'm actually considering turning gay!

And so the King has Passed!

2009-06-27T10:39:00.000-07:00

I know it's been two days, but it took a while for me to actually wrap my head around it. The King is dead! Just like that! What's really interesting is how I seemed to believe he was immortal, of course I had no idea I felt this way until I heard the news and I refused to believe it.

-Michael Jackson just died about an hour ago...

-No he didn't, what are you talking about.... MJ can't die!!?

-Yes honey he can, just like the rest of us... we can all die just like that!

Michael Jackson is the King of music, a pop star of huge proportions and no limitations. A sensation and ground breaker, a cultural icon who broke down every boundary with his music. Nationality, gender, age or sexual orientation has never carried any weight... we all listened to Michael Jackson, we all shared something. When it comes to Michael Jackson we all have something in common... all of us dance, all of us laugh and cry, all of us love, and all of us know Michael Jackson!

Dragged Out Pain!

2009-06-23T16:15:00.000-07:00

So I went to work as usual this Friday and everything was fine. Some of my co-workers wanted to go out after work and I thought why not. I had a headache but for some reason I thought it was one of those that will pass if you just start thinking about something else.... WRONG! As soon as I entered the Club I thought my head was gonna explode and I was so ready to just turn around and go home.... but I stayed cause I didn't want to hear the naggin' at work the next day. After about 1h I gave up and went home... me head was killing me. I went straight to bed and woke up 12h later. After that I was off to work again with the same headache! Sunday came and I felt the same way Again... plus I had a bridal shower and my throat was hurting. Monday morning I woke up and felt like CRAP and today I have a fever!!! WHYYYYYY?! Why this dragged out process? Can't I just wake up sick and be sick for a few days and then get it over with? Why this tedious process of slowly going down hill.... it sucks!!

I've done absolutely nothing today, I'm still in my pj's and I went to bed twice today already!!! I'm always sick.... always always always! I was never sick in Sweden I don't know what's going on here in Seattle! I'm sick of this I'm going back to bed!

Fun Fun Fun

2009-06-21T01:12:00.000-07:00

Decisions Thank You!

2009-06-21T00:46:00.000-07:00

Everyday we make decisions, some are small and some are big! It can be the most simple things, and it can be the most difficult things. It can be just as simple as it can be complicated. It can be just as joyous at it can be painful... but no matter what it's about, or what the outcome will be... the decisions still have to be made!

I make mistakes everyday, sometimes I learn right away and sometimes I have to be burned again to truly get it. But so far I've been lucky enough to always get it before it's to late... the most simple things, like just opening you eyes can sometimes be the hardest. When you open your eyes you don't only see the truth, you see everything that you let slip through your finger and you see everything you did wrong.. you see everything you accepted but never should have, you see all those times you should have spoken but you decided to be silent...... and just as clear as you see all your silent moments, you also see all the moments you opened your mouth when you should have just been quite!

As a women you need to know how to take care of yourself. It's easy to hide behind the dream of having somebody else take care of you, but at the end of the day you need to know that you have faith in yourself and that you can do it yourself. It's okay to lean on other, it's great that we have trust.... but that doesn't mean that you can let go of yourself. WAKE UP, GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!

Ignorance is bliss, and I don't blame the poor women that close their eyes and decide that they don't want to see the truth for what it is... but what I can tell you is that I pity them. The women who decide to keeps their eyes shut are also deciding to sleep through life!

I choose life, I choose to keep my eyes open.... I choose to see things for what they are... and when it doesn't look the way I want it to or need it to look... then I move on to bigger and better things!

Well Rested!

2009-06-18T14:49:00.000-07:00

So my dear Mac wasn't feelin' to good, we fought it through for a while but at the end I realized that my beloved friend needed help.... so I took Mr. Mac a.k.a "Partner in Crime" to see the Doctor.... Dr. Genius at the Apple store! After about five days of treatment my dear friend was feelin' better and now he's home again!!

I love my Mac!

Friday... My Monday!

2009-06-12T11:49:00.000-07:00

So back to work again! Friday is my Monday, thats when I start my working week and then I have wednesday and Thursday off! Annoying in one way but great in another, I like to have my two days off together so I like it!

So how did I spend my two days of freedome? went to the movies Tuesday night, up early Wednesday morning to get som nasty shots, tehn went home and ate all the greasy food you can think about, and then add some sugar to that! Thursday I had to go back to the doctor for some more shots (I'm not sick), went to southcenter mall to take my computer to the apple store .... AGAIN! Something is wrong with the screen and it's just sooooooo enoying! After that me and Thomas went to Sushi land, ate and ate and ate and the we went home and got nocked out! We were so tired! Beshir woke me up at about 9.30 PM and said we have to get ready to go to Genghis house! Totally forgot we were supposed to go for drinks and snacks, just a hangout date! Anyways we got ready, left and then ended up at The Elite..... NOT Genghis house! Don't ask me why thats just what happened! Beshir ordered his Champagne, I ordered my wine and Hanna had her Cranberry Vodka!! We were having a good time and you could tell that the heat is getting to people.... gay people like to take theire clothes off att random places! Anyways, at 2 AM it was time to go home!! We had a good night.... good drinks and good conversation! Plus me and Beshir cooked up a MASTER PLAN for summer...... but thats our little secret! :P

Time for work!!! Bye!

Best Movie EVER!!!

2009-06-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

So I got off at 10 pm yesterday and after that I ran straight to the movies... Me, Thomas, Senait, Beshir and Hanna were all meeting up to see The Hangover and the movie started at 10.30 so I had to run! I know I get off 30 before the movie and the Cinema is only 2 blocks away so it shouldn't be a problem right? WRONG! I never get off on time and I always end of staying another 20-30 min, sometimes an hour or even more! But it's okay I don't mind, unless I'm going to the movies :D But I made it on time and the running was all worth it!!

The Hangover is great, I was laughing all the way through the movie and every second was just hysterical!! It was just one thing after another and the surprises never stopped! Just when the movie starts to slow down it has you laughing hysterically again! There is so mush going on that it's worth seeing again.... and the again and again!! :D

What is the Problem!

2009-06-08T02:50:00.000-07:00

How can you not get it, girls what is your problem? Once a cheater always a cheater, once a beater always a beater! Once you kick him out and beg him to come back he knows he can do it again, once you let him disrespect you he will disrespect you again, once you let him control he will always have the control!

Women wake up!! Women respect yourself!! Ask for more, demand it all! It's just so so sad to look at you feeling sorry for yourself instead of taking action, the pitty game is so lame! It's a tragedy... pure tragedy!

Fool me once, shame on you! Fool me twice, SHAME ON ME!

Keep on crying a river and see if it's the solution to all your problems! FOOLISHNESS GETS NO SYMPATHY FROM ME!

Sun is Shining, Weather is Sweet!!

2009-06-04T13:30:00.001-07:00

The sun is here to stay, the summer is beautiful! A part of me wished I was in Sweden but right now I'm just happy and enjoying the weather!

Me and Senait went shopping yesterday! We were walking around downtown and all of a sudden I felt a sudden urge to go to Northgate Mall.... and so we went! I bought all those necessary stuff that you need but always forget and some fun stuff as well! So first the stuff I needed.... Socks, leggings, black stockings for work and black pants for work ...Hmm there was something else but I can't remember right now! And then to the more fun stuff, two summer dresses and a party top! Senait bought a pair of high waits shorts and some really really nice brown party shoes! I felt really tempted to buy another pair of shoes, but I really don't want to see the look on Thomas face when I come home with another pair of shoes... AGAIN! I still stand tall when I say that a woman can never have to many shoes, or dresses or jeans! It's just a fact!

Anyways people it's time for me to seas the day.... Carpe Diem my friends Carpe Diem!

8th & Olive

2009-06-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

Deal With It!

2009-06-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

I loved working retail! It was really fun and I would love doing it again sometime in the future! You get to help people find the right shoes for special occasions, and you get to save people right before they hit the fashion disaster stamp and bring them back..... I don't understand what's wrong with people, don't they have friends? Sometimes you loose perspective of what you look like, it's natural... and your boyfriend will always tell you that you look great because he loves you... but my friends will ALWAYS tell me the truth, just the way it's supposed to be!

My friends will never let me leave the house looking like a fashion disaster without me knowing about it! Beshir will let me know if my eye brows are crooked, if my dress doesn't fit, if my shoes don't work with the outfit and if I'm wearing the wrong belt! And I don't have to ask for this info, it's gonna come out before we leave the house no matter how I feel about it.... and you know what, if your my friend I'll treat you just the same!

Did you ever wonder what people were thinking? I wader what she's thinking right now, I wonder how he feels about this? Well guess what, if your my friend you'll never have to wonder.... I probably already told you what I'm thinking and I'm not taking it back! It's not just about clothes, it's about everything! Of course there are times when people need to be left alone and you don't need to meddle..... but if I have something to say I'm gonna say it, and I'm gonna tell it like it is! As long as I live there will be no sugar coding! Sugar coding is for week people, and if I made you cry then turn around before I see you!

Wedding Bells

2009-06-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

My friend Mimi is getting married and I'm one of her bridesmaids.... IT'S SO EXHAUSTING! She wants the dress to be short and puffy so my legs are gonna look like twigs! But it's okay, the dress is nice and it's not my day it's her day! I'm happy for her but I'm scared to death... I'm gonna walk in front of 6-800 people, and it wouldn't surprise me if her mother-in-law would invite even more! The wedding is MASSIVE! All eyes are gonna be on us, what if I fall flat on my ass and can't get up because my dress is to big and puffy.... It's a nightmare! If it happens I'm not even gonna try to get up, I'm just gonna sit there and dig a hole in the ground that I can crawl into, that way I never have to show my face again!

WHY GOD WHY!!! I would rather go in my nightgown then show up in something like this! It's like a 80's horror prom!

I know I'm gonna fall an ruin her $100,000 wedding! But no matter how stupid I look doing it, at least I'm gonna know that I didn't look as stupid as these sad bridesmaids!

Hotel Series!

2009-06-01T18:45:00.001-07:00

Is there a hotel show on TV that I don't know about? I remember there used to be one or two but I don't know about any going on now! Well my point is that if there's not then there should be! Funny things happen all the time and this is just one of them!!!.....

The other day a dude called and wanted to ask about his reservation! So I said sure I'll be happy to help you with that! He wanted to know if there was a lot of sunshine coming in through his hotel room. I haven't been working there long enough to know what room has sunshine and what room doesn't, so I gave the phone to someone else! My coworker asked the guest if he had a reason for his request, the guest was nice enough (and also stupid enough) to tell us why! Apparently the man doesn't want his Marijuana plant to die while he's on vacation so he was going to bring it with him, so he wanted to make sure that there was enough sunshine coming in through the window for the plant to survive! ..... WHAT THE HELL!!! What do you say in a situation like this? .... Ehh sure sir, you can grow your pot in our hotel, NOOOOO PROBLEM! It was just so weird! But no matter how weird it was the Weed man still made my day! I loved it!

Good Nights!

2009-05-28T12:24:00.000-07:00

Everytime me and my friends go out we dance to this song! EVERYTIME! It doesn't matter where we start out, at some point this song is played! The song is intoxicating, you can't help it, you have to move!

It's Never Going to Work!!

2009-05-26T09:32:00.000-07:00

I just got off the phone with my friends Marcel and Adam! They were hanging out, walking around, shopping and ended the day at a outside bar by the beach! SWEET! I would love to go home for like a month and just enjoy a swedish summer with my friends!

They were asking me general questions about life... how are you doing? How is work? How is Thomas? Are you happy? We didn't talk for that long but it was nice to catch up. Me and Marcel talk ALL THE TIME, but I haven't talked to Adam in almost 2 years! Big change from seeing each other everyday in high school!

Thomas wants to go to Sweden so bad, but as I was talking to my friends I realized that maybe thats not the best idea!! I'm a good girlfriend, but I was always a HORRIBLE girlfriend while I was living in Stockholm! I'm not gonna defend myself, I was so selfish! I would never call when I said I would, I would never hang out when I said I would, I would never show up on time, I was never there when the person needed me, I only picked up my phone when I felt like it, I would vanish for days and then not even try to explain why or what I was doing! I didn't feel like I owed anybody any type of excuse or explanation on how I spent my days just caring for myself and nobody else! I just wouldn't commit and If somebody tried I would wave a big red flag and tell them to GET OUT and never call me again!

The majority of my friends in Sweden are guys! I have lot's of girlfriends but if you ask me who I hang out with the most the first names I call are are not girls! #1 Would be a shared position by Marcel and Samir, #2 would be Henok, #3 would be Billy even if we ever had time or we don't talk that much while I'm here! After that the list goes on and on! I'm not saying that any of my girlfriend fall behind when it comes to priority, but these guys are the people that I spend the most time with! So now that I think about it maybe that was the problem! If I met a guy who was serious I would just treat him like one of my buddies and he'd get pissed off and want to talk about it...... then the problems started! I don't sit down and talk, I just get rid of them when they start asking for more! So if I take Thomas with me to Sweden, is the old me gonna show up and ruin the relationship, or will I still be the good girlfriend but a bad friend?

P.S Poria my friend! My persian prince with the lovely hair, beautiful spirit and wise words! You were always #1 and will never be forgotten! May you rest in peace!

Hilton

2009-05-25T18:46:00.000-07:00

So it's memorial day and I'm working! Not that this day means anything to me but I would love to enjoy the sunshine rigt now! But at the same time I'm really excited about my new job and happy to be here!

It's actually a really good day! Sure I nagged and nagged at Thomas this morning.. poor thing had to listen to say the same things over and over again! I guess I just felt like complaining about everything this morning! But it quickly turned around when I looked out the window and realized it was a beautiful day and I still had 5 hours to enjoy it before I had to be at work! So quick shower, hair up, dress and sun glasses on and then we were out! Went shopping for like an hour or two and then we had the best Brunch out in the sun at Il Chapagne right by Pike Place Market, I loved it! The sun was shining, people were smiling and the food was GREAT!

After that we walked around for a bit until it was time for me to go! I might be at work but I have no complaints! It's a great day and not one single guest had a frown on their face!

Has Monday ever been this good? No I don't think so!

Summers Off!!

2009-05-21T15:16:00.000-07:00

Remember those days, that time of your life when summer meant that you were gonna hang out with your friends, go swimming, eat ice cream, have fun and just relax everyday?! I REMEMBER... I remember it like yesterday! I would wake up, go knock on a friends door, go out and hang in the sun and just talk and have fun! After a few hours we would get tired of that and go home and change, it was time for the beach! Out with the bikes and five min later we would be on the beach or by the cliffs and jump in the water! After that we would go home and get ready for the evening!! Shower, change, meet up with friends and stay out all night, the sun just never went down!! Nobody had responsibilities and there were no limits! Anything was possible during summer in Sweden and every summer felt like a small but lovely eternity!

This is as dark as it gets! You stay up and have fun all night! For a moment time stads still!

Take me back!

Success!

2009-05-20T22:40:00.000-07:00

First day at work was great, I loved it! I think I'm gonna be happy there!

YAAAAYYYY HILTON!

NEW JOB!!!

2009-05-18T11:22:00.000-07:00

Happy Happy Happy!!! So as mush as I love Nine West and SHOES, I haven't been very happy lately, plus I didn't have enough hours! So I started looking for a new job and I found something that I like, something I believe I'm good at, AND something that will teach me new things and give my full time plus benefits! :D Oh and did I forget to mention that the pay is way better!!! CASHING CATCHING!

I wrote an e-mail to the district manager of Nine West and gave her my 2 weeks notice! It's just time to move on! So bye bye Nine West and What's Up Hilton!! :D

Me, Myself & I

2009-05-15T01:57:00.000-07:00

So I was talking to my friend Nadine earlier, she's in Sweden so it feels good to catch up! She told me she met this new friend thats really honest and that she thinks I would really hit it off with! So I start thinking... "okay...thats nice"... so I asked her to tell me more! The way she explained her new friends personality was the best! .... "She like Shoes, herself and thats about it"... Uhhhh... okay! So thats it!!?? And you think me and this person would get a long well??!! WHY?

After a few more minuted I started to understand that Nadine thinks that me and this new girl are the same, she said that the difference was that I was the good and this other girl was the bad! Like I was the angel side and the other girl the devil side! The interesting part is that I don't think I would get along with myself very well... does anybody? I think that me and this new girl would either hate each other or love each other! It can only go two ways, we pull each others hair out or we hang out everyday!

I couldn't stand hanging out with somebody like myself, there is only room for one of us! Can you hang out with somebody like yourself?

Tornado!

2009-05-14T19:37:00.000-07:00

So me and my friend were at Spit Fire last weekend! We had a great time but the place was a little stuffy, to packed! But the night was great and we danced all night!! Now to the big issue..... what's up with my hair?! I need a haircut so bad it's not even funny! I've said it for so long now that everybody just laughs when I say it! Nobody takes me seriously!

I'm walking around with a tornado on top of my head and I'm in total denial until I see a BRUTALLY honest picture. IT'S SO BAD!!!! The worst part is the bouncing, my hair bounces with my motions and I look like a giraffe! You know how a giraffes neck bounces back an forth as they walk??!! Thats what I look like!... So now your thinking... "why doesn't she just get a hair cut?"... Because I don't trust anybody with my hair, it takes the hair stylist 12 min just to find my scalp, how is she supposed to cut my hair without a catastrophic result!! It's just not possible! I'm not setting my self up for disaster... forget it!

I Want More!!!!!!!!

2009-05-14T01:47:00.000-07:00

I want to go shopping, I need to go shopping! I want more and I want it all!

People ask me how I feel about fashion and shopping in the states and if I prefer shopping in Sweden or here! Usually I say that Sweden is great and that Swedish people have a great sense of style! They really do!! I don't see half as many fashion disasters in Sweden as I do in America.... I would say that #1 in Sweden is Jeans, you just can't compare jeans from Sweden with the ones from here! But just as mush as I love Swedish fashion I sometimes hate it and love the fact that I can shop here instead! I guess it's just really hard to compare the states and Sweden... what Sweden has America doesn't, and what America has Sweden doesn't! So what I really should say is that you can't really compare, the fashion is just different at both places in a good way!

The most beautiful mess..... YES!

Sweden is crazy expensive, but everywhere you turn you find lovely items. America is less expensive but I have to dig a little deeper to find what I want! Bottom line is that I don't care if I have to dig or if it's expensive. If I want it I'll dig and dig until I find it, and if it's expensive I just consider it an investment hanging right where I can see it in my closet! CASHING CASHING!

IKEA... Like Meeting an Old Friend!

2009-05-08T12:45:00.001-07:00

I have a mission today, to go see my old friend IKEA! We go waaaaay back! Every time I need something she's right there! Sure she always leaves a mess behind, but after the mess comes the happiness! Happiness of organization and color coordination!

Your exhausted after hanging out with her a whole day, she really drains you! But she gives as much as she takes! And after a rough day she knows how to whip up a authentic Swedish meal that makes you go... MMmmmmm! And don't get me started on the desert.... Chocolate cake, ice cream, Swedish treats and candy! It's like nostalgia heaven!! IKEA will never let you go home on an empty stomach and she also prepares a little something for you to take home and eat later!

After a whole day with my friend IKEA things feel more complete, you feel refreshed! And even though she's the best, she's the kind of friend you don't want to see to often! It's like Christmas, if it was more than once a year we would all get tired of it! Me and IKEA don't really need to see each other more than maybe 2-3 times a year, sometimes less sometimes more... but you get the picture!

Time to get ready.. my friend is waiting!

Friday

2009-05-08T09:50:00.000-07:00

Do you have any idea what day it is today? Do you have any idea what this day means?

Friday is the most liberating day of the whole week, nothing can compare! We all have goals in our life, 2 year plan, 5 year plan, 10 year plan.... you get the picture!! But EVERYBODY share the Friday plan! The plan that goes.... "Make it through the week, Friday is around the corner!!" And every week it's here, never let's me down and always makes me smile!

Thank you Friday for staying true!! :P

Cyanide And Happiness! #4

2009-05-07T18:08:00.001-07:00

Sugar Coding....

2009-05-07T17:19:00.000-07:00

I'm a firm believe in truth, if you ask me a honest question you'll get a honest answer, and if you ask me what I think about something I won't be scared to step on your toes by giving you an answer! You asked for it and you got it..... signed, sealed... DELIVERED! If you want to cry about it then just make sure you get out of my sight first because I'll give you some more truth to make you stop sobbing and start running!

The Night of all Nights!

2009-05-06T14:13:00.000-07:00

I have never seen American teenagers so focused, so determined, and so desperate as during this time of the year! Prom night is around the corner and teenagers are loosing their minds! They have to have the perfect dress, perfect hair, perfect make-up, perfect ride, perfect date and OF COURSE the perfect shoes!!! Thats where I come in, or maybe I should say.... thats where Nine West comes in!

- Hi, Welcome to Nine West, how are you today!

- Good.. how are you?

- I'm good thank you, are we looking for anything in special today...

- Ehhh well.... I need shoes for Prom!!

.... Ohh REALLY!!! I'm so so surprised, It's only the 72:nd time it's happened today!

And then the hunt begins! Silver, Gold, BRONZE, White, Purple, Pink, Royal blue and all these weird requests! They tell you they want the highest heels we got but then when they try them on you notice that they never even tried walking in heels before, they just automatically thought they would look graceful walking down the street in 4 inch heels!.... Reality strikes and they realize that they can't take more than one step and their feet are killing them by just standing up so we try something else!

- Okay lets try a lower heel!

- But I want to wear high heels, it's gonna look really good with my puffy hot pink dress!!!

Kids I understand, you have this vision of what you want to look like but it's not going to work. If you buy those really high heel pumps your gonna be crying about 30 minutes into prom and the nights not gonna be as fab as you were imagining it to be! I know you want to look good but you don't need platforms and high heels for that..... What's important is to feel good, relax and just enjoy yourself, thats not gonna happen with 4 inches on your feet! So loose the shoes and try something more simple! You want the night to be unforgettable because it was great and fun, not because your feet were hurting so bad that you were crying and was miserable!

Have fun in your costumes! :D

Back in Time

2009-05-01T10:24:00.000-07:00

Everybody Wants to Feel Special!

2009-05-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

Everyday men and women put themselves out there and want to find love! It's multimillion dollar business and there a hundreds of hundreds of match making agencies out there blooming even though were going through a recession! Why? Because Love is like a never ending story! Love is always in business and it's timeless! It doesn't have a trend and it doesn't fit a model and can't really be molded by request either! It's easy but yet so hard, it's real but yet so complicated... It goes up like the sun and down like the hardest rain!

When the door shuts in your face and you fall off the horse you cry but then get up again.... and again and again and again! sometimes you take a break, but after a while your back... larger than life and bigger and better!

Love is, has always been and will always be in business!

Pants or Shoes?

2009-04-30T18:39:00.000-07:00

Wtf?

Things like this can be very confusing! Pants? Shoes? Pantshoes? Panoes?!

U Got it Bad!

2009-04-30T13:07:00.000-07:00

I know I've been missing for a while.... but I haven't even looked at my laptop this passed week, busy busy busy!!

So I opened the store as usual Sunday morning and everything went good! The new assistant manager Josh came in around noon and he was nice, good attitude! But for the first Sunday in a very long time I wasn't the only manager on duty, meaning I could take a break and not feel like the store was gonna burn down while I was gone! We usually have 30 min breaks but I had 1h this Sunday so I started walking around and went shopping! Victoria Secret, H&M and Urban Outfitters! When I walked in to Urban Outfitters I noticed there was some drama going on! They had turned off the Music and the staff and security were desperately trying to have a man leave. It was clear he hadn't stolen anything but the lonely man was noticeably infatchuated by one of the manikins! Security kicked him out so I only saw the end of the story, somebody else told me the rest! Apparently the man started out slowly by firs looking at the manikin and then started touching the clothes! No problem, happens all the time! Sometimes I see a manikin wearing a sweater that I like and I feel the material, see If I like it and then ask the staff where I can find that particular sweater! But apparently this man wasn't just feeling the material for a second. After touching the clothes he went on to slowly starting to grace the manikin. First the staff didn't say anything but the man was getting more and more excited and people in the store wore getting more and more uncomfortable! After that they called security and kicked him out!

How lonely can you get? I know a lot of people that are missing the attention they feel they need in their life, but if you start viewing manikins in a sexual way it's pretty clear that you have a problem! A BAD PROBLEM! How humiliating, how sad, HOW DISTURBING! What kind of times are we living in if your so desperate for action that you turn to a manikin? Not just any manikin, but a manikin thats out in public! Was he in a trance? Did he not realize what he was doing? Anyways.... only in Seattle, or possibly SanFran, LA, NY, London and also Stockholm! Weird, sick and entertaining things tend to happen in these cities! It's like a concrete jungle and you never know what's gonna happen or pop up around the corner! It's a never ending story!

A few weeks ago a saw a man eating chicken out of his pocket, he just happened to randomly have fried chicken in his jacket mixed in with the tissue that also just happened to be there! I also realized that you could see my disgust written all over my face, I guess the man and his chicken caught me so off gourd that I didn't get my poker face on! But OF CURSE the man mistaked my disgust for excitment and was nice enough to offer me a piece of chicken.... out of his pocket... apparently he had a stash in there, you could see the grease through the fabric of his jacket! Dark green patched of grease.... mmmmm yum yum! He was holding the chicken he offered me in his hand but he was trying to pick the tissue off it and apologized for the crap that was stuck on the chicken leg! There was some dirt on it to that he was trying to remove with his nail! IT WAS HORRIBLE! I turned him down nicely and just said "NO.. Thank you but I'm not hungry!"

At first I just wanted to barf, but then on the other hand the man thought he saw a girl hungry for some chicken and he was willing to share! Thats actually really nice!

Seasons Changing!

2009-04-24T15:42:00.000-07:00

Spring 2009

Winter 2008

2009-04-24T14:10:00.001-07:00

TESTING TESTING! So I was told I can post things to my blog by texting from my phone! Lets give it a Shot! Try #1 here we go!

Delish Dish

2009-04-24T12:25:00.000-07:00

Thomas brought me breakfast from The Crumpet Shop thats right by the Pike Place Market! They have lots of different crumpets but Thomas tends to get hung up on things so he's eternally fateful to the Salmon and Egg Crumpet... but its' really good so I don't mind at all!

But of course I couldn't find a picture of the salmon one so you'll just have to settle for a Tomato Pesto Crumpet! Come to think of it I would probably love it! Juicy Tomatoes.... mmmmm..... Basil Pesto..... mmmmm! Guess I know what to ask for next time!

I Need a New Show!

2009-04-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

I need a new show to follow, somebody please tell me about some great awesome show that I can download and watch for days?!?!

Something like Prison Break, Desperate Housewives, Ugly Betty... you know what I mean! I have this void I have to fill after watching all the episodes of secret life so help me out!... But it needs to be a show thats kind of new, meaning not more than like 3 seasons old!

So come on people, HIT ME! Give me a new show or I'll be really sad!

The Words that are True but Never Help!

2009-04-23T11:51:00.000-07:00

It's gonna get better!
Give it some time!
Everything happens for a reason, maybe something good can come out of this!
One day your gonna look back and laugh at this!
Everything is gonna be fine, don't worry!

We all know it's true but at the time we really don't want to hear it! Don't worry nothing happened, I'm doing great! Just saw a movie and started thinking about some things! The truth is always good, the truth is what we need..... but sometimes we don't want to hear anything! Sometimes we just want silence and a shoulder to cry on!

So Ugly it Stinks!

2009-04-22T15:59:00.000-07:00

And so stinky it reeks! It's actually pretty disgusting!

Okay I know, the intro is pretty weird and probably leaves you clueless, but you don't need to understand and know everything! Trust me sometimes ignorance is bliss!

My friend Emelie has a blog, sometimes she reads mine and says she understands or feels the same way, sometimes I read hears and say the same thing! Last time I read it she was writing about how hard it can be to create a new life and live here. Some people wonder why we stay if everything is so tuff, but it's the struggle, sadness and sometimes the feeling of hopelessness that actually makes us stay! At home everything comes so easy that it eventually gets tedious, it feels monotonous and dull! The comfort makes you stay in one place... I'm not just talking about location, I'm talking about one place mentally and also in life! nothing changes, no development! You just keep on doing what you were always doing and don't think much of it!

I've lived here for a little over 2 years now. During this time I've struggled, fought, lost, learned and cried more then I did my whole lifetime in Sweden.... but do I want to change anything? NOTHING!! I don't want to change anything except for some minor hair color disasters that I really believe I could have lived without!!!! :P ... But other than that everything is just the way It's supposed to be, and everything I went through happened just the way it was supposed to happen! Despite all the disasters and nights of just crying and crying I truly feel that I am at the right place the right time! And just as many night that I spend crying I also laughed and enjoyed myself to the fullest! I have a great life! The reason that it's great is because it's mine, I'm living MY life!

In Seattle I "feel" and therefore I live!

Hooked

2009-04-18T11:59:00.000-07:00

I'm not big on shows!! Meaning I like to watch them but I'm not good at following them. I always forget and then when I start watching again I don't know what's going on because I missed like everything.... So usually I just let the whole season pass and then I download all episodes and watch on my own time! So thats what I've been doing for like two days, watch episode after episode of "The Secret Life of the American Teenager"... I LOVE IT!! I didn't even know about the show, saw something online and downloaded everything! I just watched two seasons in two days and stayed up to 4.45 a.m just to finish! These television dramas are kind of dangerous, after you watch one episode you have to watch the next one.... it's like pistachios and skittles, you can't just have one!!!

So now I'm stuck, I want to see what happens next but I finished all the seasons that were out already! Season 3 isn't even out yet.... Nothing to download! So what's gonna happen now.... Is Amy gonna raise the baby? Is she gonna end up with Ricky? Are her parents getting back together? Is Ben really gonna marry her? Is Adrienne gonna realize what she's doing? Is Grace gonna wake up and smell the coffee? Is Jack doomed to forever be the stupid jock and is the Sausage King gonna help Ben?

See.... So many questions! I hate this!

Give Me Hope.. Joanna Give Me Hope!

2009-04-12T20:49:00.001-07:00

I have a friend, or actually I have lots of them.... but this one has some unique specialties, her name is Joanna! Of course she's in Sweden, meaning the other side of the world like the rest of my great crew(s)!!

Joanna has magical hands, she can make the hair on your arms and back rise by pulling her hand through your hair! You sit there for hours until the hair on your head stands right up! Se can give you a face massage that makes the world stand still and a back massage that makes you forget everything thats wrong with the world!

Of course she has other great qualities as well, she's a pretty bad ass cook, knows how to draw, can finish a book in a heart beat and makes you laugh so hard you start gasping for air! She's also bluntly honest and if she's sick of you and wants you out of her way she'll let you know! ... Anyways, what I want right now is to go back about 6-7 years in time (yes, It's been that long), get a Joanna massage, eat junk food, make some of me and Joanna's trademarked tabasco popcorn, and watch some good TV on her couch with some friends from back in the days! ... At this point in life everything was easy, but did I know that... Of course not!! Give me hope, Joanna give me hope!

Sunday Around the Corner!

2009-04-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

So today is Saturday, that means run home in about an hour and get ready to work at Nine West! I'll probably take it easy after work, I need to rest after all this sinus crap and medication! Then on Sunday I have a day off... can you believe that?! I was chocked... and then I realized it's easter and I wasn't that surprised anymore! But I love having a Sunday off, I can finally organize the house, cook some food and do some laundry.... that is if I don't get to lazy and sleep half the day and watch TV the other half!

I had had a few hours off yesterday so Me, Beshir, Senait and Thomas went grocery shopping! Thomas was totally confused, grocery shopping seems to be a new phenomenon for him! I guess he just needs to get used to it! This man has been eating out EVERYDAY for over 6 years, thats actually a small disaster! So of course he doesn't buy groceries! I think he realized he needs a change when I calculated that he spends about $400-$600 on eating out every month! Thats a lot of money! I love to go out and eat, but I don't do it because I can't cook but because it's nice to go out and eat with your friends! But I guess in Thomas case it was a survival thing, if he would cook he would eat pasta with tomato sauce 7 days a week! I would get pretty tired of that after about 2 days!

And I'm Doing It Again!

2009-04-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

I got up but now I'm stuck, I did the same mistake as always.... I said I'm just gonna check my e-mail and now I'm a internet junkie! It's so stupid, I already killed 40 min on absolutely nothing! I'm supposed to be in the shower and have one machine running so it's ready to put in the dryer before I leave! And I'm supposed to start cleaning the kitchen but thats not happening either! I know what's gonna happen, I'm gonna write this, then I'm gonna start looking at other meaningless things online and then all of a sudden I'm gonna run out of time! At that point I'm gonna skip the laundry, skip the breakfast, jump in the shower REALLY REALLY fast.... like the way guys shower, I have no idea how they do it so fast but thats my goal today.... and then get my clothes on fast as hell and run out the door with wet hair and a sleepy look! And as always half way out the door the wind is gonna hit my face and everything is going to crack because I'm gonna be rushing so mush that I forgot face cream..... moisturize moisturize moisturize.... It's the key people! Forget everything but don't forget your face cream, your gonna be suffering all day! Oh and cell phone, don't forget your cell phone! It's funny how addictive that thing is, I don't think I know life without it!

No more killing time.... PEACE!

So Confusing!

2009-04-09T12:19:00.000-07:00

Stare at it long enough and you'll just get more confused! But still interesting!